Looking Beyond 2010

As I sit and contemplate on what I have done during the past 10 months of 2010; I could not recollect anything else but only experiences of hardship, broken love, broken dream, broken promises and a sense of self instability.

It is has been a year of turmoil and a year not worth remembering because it only recalls painful memories. Yet, I also realized that this is part of growing up and growing old. Life is a journey and many times decisions that are made may not necessary be the right one all the times. I regret making some bad decisions but it is only fair to say that I did my best in the most difficult circumstances.

I have hurt people along the way; but I also realized that I am only human. The only way I see how these memories of bad time can heal is allow time to pass and find best ways to resolve them one by one. Trying to resolve problems in a rush will not necessary solve them; but may potentially make them worst.

Again, life is a journey..Without it, dull, distasteful and lacks of colors.

I have made a vow that I shall not walk away from the mistakes made without having them resolved. Rather, I will find the most suitable solutions to resolve them. For I am obligated to ensure that whatever happens has to be corrected.

I have gone through countless good memories; yet today my focus is on bad ones because I want to make sure that my future decisions and actions shall not be repeated. I will treat each one of my failures as slave and not my master; yet I shall learn from them.

Lost time realistically cannot be made up; but I want to ensure that my loved ones know that I am always there for them. It is them who may have distant themselves from me. I feel no regret but only to be encouraged that I am allowed the freedom to make choices on my own. Good or bad..They are mine.

As I sit and I contemplate further; I can only see better days ahead of me.

2010 has gone passed and 2011 will ring in another 56 days counting from today, November 5th 2010.

For now, I can only think to those days ahead which include Thanksgiving, Christmas, and of course the New Year's day celebration.